As the first entry of this journal/blog I offer some words from W. Purdin - a writter on the “Work”  who has captured the gist of what appears to be my present predicment.

“Now a man, and a woman with Magnetic Center, who seeks to find something more than life does not so easily die. But life alone makes us dead very soon. We die life millionaires, working day and night for fifty years, say - yes, but we died perhaps years ago. This is a matter we all have to reflect on. Work does not invite us until we reach a certain life-value called  "Good Householder". This is the first education - the formation of a good educated life-personality. But there is a second education and always has been. This is for those who do not believe that life can be explained in terms of itself. It is for those Good Householders, those educated and responsible people, who do not really believe in life and yet carry on their duties. And those Good Householders, who believe still further that there is and must be something else and seek for it -  that is, those Good Householders, whose being is characterized by the  possession of Magnetic Center - will understand how this Work offers the second education for men and women who have fulfilled the conditions necessary for attaining the level of Good Householder.”

Reference: Purdin, W. (2010). Psychological Commentaries on the Teaching of Gurdjieff and Ouspensky  Retrieved from Google Books